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Post by Lucas Toller on Dec 29, 2008 13:52:01 GMT -5
Lucas pulled up to the Winchester's home. Amberly told him to meet her after school and thats what he was doing. He pulled into there driveway parked the car and hopped out going and knocking on there door. |
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Post by 'amberly sarah winchester' on Dec 29, 2008 13:55:37 GMT -5
Amberly just finished cutting her self again and quickly changed her top and put the one that had stains on it in the washing basket and answered the door, Noticing Lucas there "Hi" she said, her hands we're shaking badly, She looked down at her top that she thrown on there was the blood peering on it now, She looked at him. Her foster mum was asking her who's at the door and to go to her "Its just my friend" she said and took his hand and let him in. |
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Post by Lucas Toller on Dec 30, 2008 14:39:50 GMT -5
" Hey..." Lucas said with a small smile on his face glancing at Amberly. Then lowered his voice so she could just hear and nobody else thay may be near. " So are you going to tell me whats going on or what?" he asked softly. |
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Post by 'amberly sarah winchester' on Dec 30, 2008 14:44:02 GMT -5
Amberly looked at him and lead him to her room and looked at him, She then slowly rolled her top up and shown him the cuts, red raw ones, which we're just done and some old ones. |
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Post by Lucas Toller on Dec 30, 2008 14:51:27 GMT -5
Lucas's eyes went wide as he saw the cuts he had no idea what to say or do. " What.." was all that came out of his mouth. " Why?" he couldn't even finish a statement. |
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Post by 'amberly sarah winchester' on Dec 30, 2008 14:55:08 GMT -5
Amberly sighed and rolled her top back down "Because its always about Cassie, All the time, Since we fell into the lake she gets all the attension, no one thanked me for saving her and getting her to the hosptial after we fell in it, I just got shouted at and everyone ignored me" she said and looked away "I hate it, I'd rather have died in that car crash with my mum and dad" she said, She has never ever said anything like that before but she ment it because no one wanted her there, No one would listen to her or miss her if she was gone. |
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Post by Lucas Toller on Dec 31, 2008 11:28:48 GMT -5
Lucas didn't really no what to say to any of that and he sighed a bit staring down at the ground. " That's stupid Amberly.. stupid to even think that or to say any of that.." he paused shaking his head a bit. " If you would of died in the car crash with your parents a lot of people's life would of changed and not really for the better..." he said. " You think it would be better but you don't even know what you have until you lose it and theres someone out there with a worse life you just haven't met them yet.... yea you didn't get thanked but thats not as bad as what happens to some people.." he ended his little speech a bit now. |
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Post by 'amberly sarah winchester' on Dec 31, 2008 11:35:00 GMT -5
Amberly shook her head at rolled her top down and walked away from him, She knew he wouldnt understand. "Exactly why i didnt tell you any of this, Everyone just has a go at me for it and you know no one cares!" she said to him to even taking a look at him |
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Post by Lucas Toller on Jan 1, 2009 15:07:51 GMT -5
Lucas sighed a bit running a hand threw his hair. Feeling bad for yelling at her like that but he believed everything he had said and he didn't want her hurting herself for one and the reason why she was hurting herself was quite dumb in his mind but any reason to be hurting yourself he found dumb anyways. " Look I'm sorry... and Amberly I do care about you... I don't want you hurting yourself.." he exclaimed. |
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Post by 'amberly sarah winchester' on Jan 1, 2009 15:13:31 GMT -5
Amberly looked at him a few tears came to her eyes as she sat on the bed and burried her head in her hands she cried softly "Im, Im, Im sorry" she cried. |
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Post by Lucas Toller on Jan 1, 2009 15:23:48 GMT -5
She was crying now! Great! He hated to see girls cry and when it was Amberly it was even worse. He turned to face her now seeing as she had sat on her bed now. " It's alright Amberly.. please don't cry.." he said with a frown he then turned his eyes away from her to the ground he hated to see her cry so it was hard for him to look at her when she was that way. it mad him feel extremely bad. [/size] |
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Post by 'amberly sarah winchester' on Jan 1, 2009 15:33:20 GMT -5
[size=1 Amberly calmed down after a while and she looked at him "When you said we was going out to Cassie, Why did you do that? Why didnt you tell her you two were?" she asked [/size] |
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Post by Lucas Toller on Jan 1, 2009 15:36:43 GMT -5
Dang it was his first thought he knew when he came here this would be brought up and he had been avoiding it all day, and well now he knew he was going to have some explaining to do. he sighed a bit rubbing the back of his neck his eyes still on the ground. " Well, I.. I err I don't know..." he said. " It was an accident..." he exclaimed and there was truth in most of it. It wasn't like he had met to blurt out a yes no matter how much he had wanted it to be true. |
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Post by 'amberly sarah winchester' on Jan 1, 2009 15:44:58 GMT -5
Amberly looked at him "Oh ermm ok" she said and some tears started to fill up in her eyes again "For a moment i thought you liked me, like i like you but it doesnt matter" she said and stood up and walked to the window where her pen knife lay and she looked out of the window not looking at him she started to play around with the pen knife and it cut her hand a little not letting him see, As the tears ran down her face. |
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Post by Lucas Toller on Jan 1, 2009 15:52:07 GMT -5
Damn it, was yet again one of his first thoughts when she started to tear up yet again. He decided he might as well be honest with her and maybe it would be easier for him to be honest with her when she wasn't facing him yet he still couldn't look at her back so he stared down at the ground. " Amberly.. I do like you.." he paused letting it sink in or hoping it would. " But.." yes there was always a but he hated buts but he had to use it. " I don't know if I can be with you. I.. I used Cassie to get close to you and I feel shit for it. But you see I didn't know how to get close to you... there was some other guys talking to you and like we were in separate groups where Cassie was the first to talk to me and she liked me so I thought I could learn to like her but I never did so I used her to get to know you.. then she had her accident and forgot me and I just feel horrible because she should be mad that I like you and that I used her but she has no idea! It just seems to easy now.. to be with you after what I did.." he ended with having a feeling she was going to be extremely pissed off at him now. He couldn't yet look up to see her face either. |
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